While You Were Gone

While you were gone
I learned things I didn't think I needed to know
I found myself when I thought I was lost
While you were gone
I thought of you often
I felt heartache with every memory of you
While you were gone
I felt no relief for myself
I wished you next to me constantly
While you were gone
Others tried to keep me company
But no one came close to you
While you were gone
You'd be surprised by me
I became the one I was always meant to be

connor

i feel your sharp jaw

as i touch your face

i try to remember why

i thought i needed space

we hold each other

you kiss my neck

my heart is pounding

keep my feelings in check

you whisper to me

how do i respond

i want this to end

afraid of our bond

i dont know how to think

what did i expect

you want to know me

the questions i deflect

nothing feels right

my heart a goner

over before it started

my experience with connor

Your Smile

I like how your face brightens when you smile
It makes me feel like flying is worthwhile

When I'm with you the warm feeling I get
Was not what I expected when we met

I kind of like how I forget ev'rything 

When I drink the drunken feeling you bring

I don't quite know if it's normal or strange

But I don't want your smile to ever change

Because you and your smile have inspired me

I'm being the poet I ought to be