fix

i keep trying
to find ways
to fix myself

to right the
wrongs that
i always have

but i dont know
if i can call
myself broken

if i have been
like this the
whole time

am i damaged

over here

would it be

selfish

of me

to ask you

to come back

to the

east coast?

i know

you must like

it there

in san diego

but i am

all the way

over here

and when i

think of you

being so

far away

my breath

catches in

my throat

and i

wonder if

ill ever 

get you 

back

Craigslist: Missed Connections

w4m "I Miss You" (Chicago)

When we first met
I knew you were
the man
I was going to
marry....
You were & are
everything that I
asked the Lord
to bless me with.
When you entered
my life I wasn't
ready for you,
I got scared,
panicked and
disappeared.
I really wish
we could
start over
and be to
each other what
we were meant
to be.
My mind is open
and my heart is receptive
and you are
all I need.
Maybe we've gotten
to a point of
no return,
or maybe not...
I think we owe it
to ourselves to
get serious
and stop this
back & forth
madness and be
happy....
you know you
want to ;)
I miss you,
I need you
and I want you ....

relieved

i feel relieved
for the second time
in seven months

the first time
was when i
said goodbye

the second time
is now
when i
never
came back

at hello

you lost
me
at hello

you loved
me
at goodbye

i loved
you
this whole
time

but
i lost
you

when i
thought
you were
mine