when i dreamt of my cat dying

the thought of losing you
is worse
than my worst nightmare

that terrible dream
woke me up
gasping for air
in the cave of darkness
that is named
"The Early Morning"

breaking me from confusion
as i struggle to remember
that im in my room
and not trapped in
the nightmare
of losing you

corona and margarita

your corona to my margarita
reminds me of nikki giovanni
talking about how rain has
drops

she says...
"And I have you"
and it all ties together
whoever the you is
and whatever it means
to have someone

but it's hard for me to
think about you
having me with
all of our discrepancies

so i'll drink
my margarita
and you can drink
your corona
and i'll read love poems
in my bed and smile
along with my
tipsy heart

brightest

"you were the brightest part of my weekend"

thanks for seeing my sparkle
but i feel like it will dull
as i get dragged along
for your little joy ride.
i want to keep myself
glowing and happy
so im going to dip
at least for now
until i know
our hearts are
in the same place.

god damn man child

you just want to be the world
wherever you go
whoever you are with
you just wanted to
win me over so
you could say
i fell for you

you are just a man child
who wants to play
and act impulsively
rush into love

i held you back from
jumping all in
because you wanted love
here and now
that is what you are
used to and other girls
just let it happen
other girls let you happen

you thought of me second
your fun and enjoyment
came first

why wait for the best
when i can have you
you thought you
were the best

god damn man child

that gut feeling

i should have listened
but i didnt want to believe it
i didnt want to believe
you werent the one for me
that last time i saw you
i didnt feel happy with you
you made my heart
feel heavy and i didnt think
i could do this forever
but i wanted to try and fight
through that gut feeling
that gut feeling that
i should have listened to