Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Hands have teeth

He talks to me,
a Neanderthal.
He thinks
my hands have teeth.
He can smell my fear,
I can taste his fear,
what is fear?
We stand outside
the bar,
goosebumps.
Stray cats
seen at dusk,
like him and I.
Looking for 
some kibble,
like the rest of us.
We are antsy.
It is sour.
He minimizes
himself,
digs around
my brain.
I cringe at
each sentence.
The stretch
of his words.
He has time.
The culture was
never ours to
make better.
I smell
the sourness
of his fear

and I know.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Waiting

"I'm going to
wait for you
but I can't
wait forever"

But
what if I am
not worth
waiting for?

But
what if I do
not want you
to wait
for me?

But
what if you
are wasting
your time by
waiting
for me?

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Suffocating

i felt like 
there was
a plastic bag 
over my 
head

when i thought 
about
committing 
to you

do i have 
a fear
of commitment

or 
a fear
of you

Sunday, April 10, 2016

KUMMERSPECK

KUMMERSPECK:

to fill the emptiness
in my heart
to fill the emptiness
of my soul
to avoid that emptiness
in my stomach

when i left you
i thought i would feel
nourished if i
ate your weight
in grief bacon
but it was just
greasy
and unsatisfying
like you

Thursday, April 7, 2016

thoughts while walking home

sensory things
thrifted jeans
white wisps of denim
catching on
the concrete
catching on
to what
humor told me
it’s not
funny
laughing is a
personal activity
i am not
a sensory
being