city of strangers

you're not supposed to look for signs
you're supposed to let life happen

when you're in a city of strangers
attacking the unfamiliar every moment

trying to find comfort in excitement
taking on a new world every day

no one but yourself to live and breathe

on visiting my grandfather's grave

being able to breathe again
a sigh of gratitude

lessons learned and
closure exposed

i know you are not there
but i know you are inside

ill forever be grateful for
being apart of your legacy

i will forever keep you in mind
through each step in life

for you have given me gifts
and tools and wisdom

feeling at peace

beginning again

beginning again
finding a home
making a life
in solitude
personal growth
the only one
up and away

still looking for you

still looking for you
in everyone i see
still remembering you
in each day

i thought it would be
easier since time moves on

but i miss you more than anything
i wish things weren't this way

words from reality

he kind of sucked

he was in this little dream world
he was self absorbed

he only cared when it was good for him
he was selfish
and illogical

he pretended like he cared about me

he didnt have a clue as to how life worked

he was flawed

and i was supposed to play some sort of role he made up for me in his head?