Waiting

"I'm going to
wait for you
but I can't
wait forever"

But
what if I am
not worth
waiting for?

But
what if I do
not want you
to wait
for me?

But
what if you
are wasting
your time by
waiting
for me?

Suffocating

i felt like 

there was

a plastic bag 

over my 

head

when i thought 

about

committing 

to you

do i have 

a fear

of commitment

or 

a fear

of you

KUMMERSPECK

KUMMERSPECK:

to fill the emptiness
in my heart
to fill the emptiness
of my soul
to avoid that emptiness
in my stomach

when i left you
i thought i would feel
nourished if i
ate your weight
in grief bacon
but it was just
greasy
and unsatisfying
like you

thoughts while walking home

sensory things

thrifted jeans

white wisps of denim

catching on

the concrete

catching on

to what

humor told me

it’s not

funny

laughing is a

personal activity

i am not

a sensory

being

what is this

what is this

if now 

im feeling

infatuated

with you

what was that

if then

i felt 

afraid and wrong

with you