moving on

moving on
to something new
you are completely
out of my life
i dont need to know
what youre doing
nor do i want to

moving on
to something new
to someone who
deserves and has earned
the privilege of
knowing what
im up to

moving on
to something new
i cant wait to
see everything
thats better than you

youre a distant memory

youre a distant memory
i barely remember
the sound of your voice
the touch of your hands
the color of your eyes

i do remember your betrayal
your lies
your insecurities
your inability to take responsibility

how you disrespected me

and those are memories
i dont want to forget

hopeful

hopeful
and ready for a change

ready to move on
even for a morning

welcoming a new start
a breath of fresh air

a foreign interaction
even if it doesnt catch on

im hopeful

not that this one
is supposed to be the one

but hopeful
that i can have a new start

anywayz

if i didnt end it when i did
i would have had to end it
later on
i made it easier on us
in the long run
i knew for awhile
that we were not meant to be
i knew you didnt have my heart
i new i didnt love you
like i was supposed to

i knew it wasnt supposed to feel
like that
and i worried when i would
pull the trigger
what would happen to us
i think this is for the best
and its easier than i thought
you were never ready anywayz
i know i did the right thing

that poem i wrote for you before

i never really shared
my poetry with you
it never felt right
it never felt like you
deserved to see that
part of my soul
besides that one
curated and guarded
poem that i wrote
knowing you would
read it one day

when i truly love
someone i will know
when i can share
that piece of my
soul with them
wholly and fully
without hesitation
without feeling vulnerable
without feeling like
i have to give a
disclaimer like how
i always had to do
when i was with you

you never understood me
you never tried to
even when i gave you
an explanation
you still took things
the wrong way
i couldnt be vulnerable
with you
you had an edited
version of me
filtered to avoid
judgement just like
that one single
poem i gave you