after the first date

would it be bad if i
wanted to see your smile
every day forever?

i know it’s so soon
but i can’t help but
feel my heart swell up
beating so fast and
feeling lighter and lighter
like it could float
up
and
up
like a balloon
gently bumping into
the ceiling.

would it be bad if i said
i wanted to keep you
until the end of time?

i can’t help but feel afraid
that this could be something
that i want this to be something

but seeing your smile
kind of makes me feel
like it’s okay to get hurt

you might be the first person
who would be worth it.

Mom

The feeling of falling
into bed after a long
day on your feet

The feeling of anxiety
lifting from your shoulders
that was there all day

The feeling of worry
fading away until
it's nonexistent

The feeling of trust
that everything is okay
and handled

The feeling of love
endlessly and unconditionally
never wavers

finally

i've made me
happy

finally

consistently

for months

can't let anything
change that

protect myself

i can finally feel
all of that work
that so many
didn't understand

The Leap

I want to feel hopeful
but I don't want to end up
hopeless

I want to daydream
but I don't want another
nightmare

I want true love
but I don't want the
trauma

How do I know if it's
okay and
safe
to make
The Leap

Simple Reminders

"I hope you
find someone who
makes you
as happy as
you made me."

"In that English class
freshman year
I saw you & couldn't
take my eyes off of you
for the next 4 years."

Simple reminders
that I deserve
what I give

Simple reminders
that I'm worthy
of better

Simple reminders
that it's not over
and more will come