having a drink with you

having a drink with you
is how i know i am home
light and airy pink wine
chilled just as it should
in a stemless glass
feeling at peace
so much relief in
leaving my worries
and releasing my anxieties
into the thin air i can
finally breathe into my
cup before sipping
the liquid to fill my heart

setting spray & rain

light mist

falling from the sky

feels like my setting spray

gently falling on my makeup

rain gently falling on my car

glistens on the windshield

punishments of God

what punishments of God are not gifts

each time i suffer, i feel like the feeling
will be permanent.

i forget that crisis is temporary and i
do not have to hurt forever.

however, each time i enter into trauma
i find myself a gift

life is a gift. happiness is a gift.
suffering is a gift.

one cannot find happiness unless
you have found suffering.

through heartache, i have found
compassion and love.

i have found awareness of the
suffering of others.

and i can make peace with my trauma
knowing it has grown my empathy.

lost your sparkle

you've lost your sparkle

maybe i have
for just right now
in my corporate life
im trying to find
stability in my art

but in my heart
i know this
is one of the only times
i have seen my sparkle
so bright
so colorful
so vibrant

i feel so good
and content
and fulfilled
where i am now

insignificant people

looking back
at individuals
i have forgotten
they dont matter

their thoughts
and fucked up behaviors
irrelevant

their insecurities
and problems
they put on me
for so long
now don't make
a difference
to me

insignificant people