realized denial

And I feel pretty lost
But it feels pretty good

But not really
Because, in theory, I'm right
where I'm supposed to be

I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing
I've made more strides than my peers

I've reached awareness
I've realized denial

at what cost

if i keep holding on long enough
do you think the butterflies will just appear

am i okay with forgoing the organic
for the sake of societal pressure

checklists are only checklists
when chemistry isnt initial

planned and calculated
but at what cost

this one isn't about you

This one isn't about you
Explaining my theories and ideas
Rambling about my passions

Keep up

"You're smart"

I said this one isn't about you

I didn't think I was a romantic
Until I couldn't stand the apathy

Let's keep it at the surface
I couldn't bear to take it further

"Most people are dense"

But this one isn't about you either, is it?

Because who am I other than a manic.
pixie.
dream girl?

Fix yourself. All of you.

hopeful?

i know i've said this before

and i know i've been here before

i know i've felt this before

and right now

i don't want to let this fly

too high

but is it so wrong to feel a little

Hopeful?

to the wolves

it sucks to put yourself out there
and throw yourself to the wolves
when you know perfectly well,
they could eat you whole

but hope is the thing with feathers
that might help you fly away
when wolves are getting a bit vicious
and you dont know if you can stay