all the room

I saved a piece in
My heart
Reserved for you
Always

But you seemed to
Have taken up
All the room
In my mind

you were never coming back

you were never coming back

our chances were gone

as soon as you left that first time

but i didn’t want that to be true

i reached for you

but came out empty 

my hand grasping nothing

and my heart aching

i didn’t think

you were coming back

so i decided

i wasn’t either 

i am one

spending all that time
closer to you
i feel far away
wanting to distance
myself from dependency
i am one
unconnected
you are one
suffocated
not one together

leo

a little goatee
spots of orange
a regal attitude
a chip on his shoulder
a swagger in his step

stripes on his tail

a demand in his meow

a section in my heart

reserved for him

the first to call my own

and give all my love to

without reservation

(or welcome)

but always loved

a homesickness

a lump in my throat
a panic in my chest
a sense of wrong in my soul
a homesickness everywhere

i thought being away for a year
and creating a full life here
would make me okay
with being away from home

i can find comfort in love
and friendship and felines
i can find comfort in my new home,
phone calls, and texts

but i'll always find MY comfort
in my childhood family room
tv on, my parents content...
sitting behind me, safe