broken reality

i tried to run away
from you
so i wouldn't have to
face our broken reality

but that is not
something i could
escape from

it always lingered
in my head

i pushed away all
thought of you in January

i felt a single stab
from you in February

i lived in blissful denial
of any of this in March

and now i must come home
and out of hiding
to feel the pain ive been
putting off all this time