wasted on you

i spent all that time
for my future love
working on myself
so i could love fully
and accept fully
and feel fully

but i felt like i was
wasting it on you
because you
didnt love me
unconditionally
when i felt fully
and opened myself
up to you

you were quick to
knock me down
without an explanation
quick to criticize and judge
hypocrite
dumb
illogical
my self-improvement
was wasted on you