Flashbacks

times like these
make me think back
to times before
that were bad
memories rush
around in my head
terrible feelings
of the struggles
that were harsh
i had to endure
unfriendly reminders
of not being good
enough for life
my best is not
enough for this
being broken
down for being
who i am and
what i can do
my ability is weak
and pathetic
they always said
constantly told
of constant failures
all comes back
again and again
as i experience
flashbacks