I Am Not Even Aware

of myself and my feelings.
of my soul and my dealings.
of my heart and my pleadings.
of my tears and my bleedings.
of my hurt and my loathings.
of my fears and my closings.
of my mind and my mournings.
of my being and my yearnings.
of my confusion and my weepings.
of my sureness and my keepings.
of my chances and my doings.
of my life and my losings.
of my mistakes and my endings.
of my memory and my mendings.
I am aware of
of my recovery and my beginnings.