My Heart Hurts

There is an eternal aching in my chest

that I wish would just disappear.

I waited too long to tell him how I feel

and now my hurt soul I cannot bear.

I am sure I missed his hints earlier on

and now my hints do not matter as he is gone.
The tears are building up behind my eyes
though my dry lids will never ask any whys.
If only I knew what to do
in a situation I have no clue.
I can try to mend and tell him what my feelings are
though his feelings may not be the same.
But my feelings are not used to being so far
and become lost in space they may.
I jokingly said that I was secretly in love with him
but a joke it definitely was not.
A journey is to be continued
for a conclusion has not been brought.

And now I finally told him how I felt
and he too had feelings for I.
But he did not exactly reciprocate
what I truly felt inside.
He told me we would not be
anything but a crush.
If things were different we would be
happily ever after he knows as much.
I dreamed we would be
and we would love.
I imagined how we'd laugh
and giggle and smile all of.
I did not think it would end this way
when we knew we should be together.
It's hard to keep these feelings at bay
because it will be hard to find another.
I think I was a few days too late
but I couldn't have done it sooner.
My heart he did break
but I know I will recover.